Sunday, December 25, 2011

O Christmas...

Merry Christmas to you and to those around. Happy Holidays. <3

Skin: [Atomic] Grace - Mistletoe (With Love Hunt)
Make-Up: [Misc. Inc.] I Love Liner - Humility 1
Make-Up: [mock] Darkened Mood Garnets Makeover
Hair: [Shag] Naked As We Came - Fever

Dress: Ladies Who Lunch - Angel Christmas - Group Gift
Shoes: Ladies Who Lunch - Escarpa (With Love Hunt)

Pose: The Muse Poses
Location: Statis Island
Listening: Celtic Christmas "O Christmas Tree"

Thursday, December 22, 2011

At world's end...

I am silly in love with mesh.

Strangely enough being in SL for these past five years has shown me a lot. I've seen the clothes take form from so many different angles that right now - mesh is almost so life-life it's almost too real. I can almost touch it at times.

I quickly just hopped over and picked up the demo at Celoe for the new Zoe Pumps. I haven't tried them on yet, but I will when I log back in. Right now, I just want to write and procrastinate. Maybe dream a little dream. Prior to that, my cohort and I were just idling on sim - the sim we'll be opening in less than two weeks to the public. A sim that we've spent almost two months preparing for our enjoyment. I wonder when it opens my love again of fashion will be tossed to the wind and I will forget, or worse...let go...

Skin: -Glam Affair- JadisV2 Snow Queen
Make-Up: [mock]Darkened Mood Garnets Makeover
Hair: "LoQ" Pure Beauty - Black

Bodysuit: MONS - Natasha - powder pink (With Love Hunt)
Skirt: La Dernier Lamento
Boots: *G Field* Lace-Up Boots - Gina - Fog *MESH*
Necklace: La Nuit Du Chasseur Collar
Headpiece: La rose noire de la Reine
Prop: Crooked Designs - Wind-Up Doll Key ~ Elegant Dark

Pose: [.doll] and The Muse
Location: World's End Garden
Listening: Madonna "Frozen"

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

When he calls...

I enjoy speaking with him on the phone. It's the little bit that counts. I know we only speak every few weeks, even before, when it used to be every few days, but still - even if he is across the pond, our lives still come together and we make the effort to call one another to touch base. To touch each others lives. I can still feel his fingers upon my face. It's the caring that I enjoy...its what makes it real.

Skin: Grixdale - Teagan - Mint - Draft *Retired*
Make-Up: [Misc. Inc.] I Love Liner - Diligence 1
Make-Up: [PXL] Teeth Bracers
Hair: Magika [Hair] Safe - Brown

Sweater: =Zenith= Ball Ball Sweater Jacket Golden (With Love Hunt)
Sweater: *Fishy Strawberry* Knit Sweater Powder
Skirt: Armidi Limited Classic A001 Jean Skirt Dirty
Tights: JANE lil piggies tights.fuzzy white fawn
Boots: {mon tissu} Heathrow Boots - Ash *Mesh*
Gloves: wool gloves - Winter pattern white (With Love Hunt)
Barrette: ::Happy Finds:: Rose Pink Hair Pin

Location: Three Moons Village
Listening: Underworld "Dirty"

Monday, December 19, 2011

Studying with Santa...

The GRE book sits open..the GMAIL calendar display is idle on my screen...upon screen...upon screen. I should get myself in order, but my mind is a mash of mix emotions that I can't even get intuned. Intuned. *checks to see* fuck it. Spelling has never been my best. Grammatical errors abound! That's what my marketing research professor stated over the semester. Great works - the discussions were wonderful, but the slight grammar errors. I write quite well, he said.

I'm trying hard to think. I really am. Rock bottom hurts. More so lately, cause I'm not sure where I am going with a lot of things. It's the "woe is me" angle I'm guessing. Back during the reign of MySpace, blogging used to be such an outlet that I could just write to my hearts content and people would read and people would comment and we'd have a little ball and that's where we'd go to get our woes and whatnots out. Now I wonder who will read this modge podge of stuff that is tossed into a blog. So random.

I will sit here and make up a calendar that will be the outlet that designs what I will do for my GRE. My GRE will allow me to go to graduate school in the fall to pursue my MBA. It's to better my life. To succeed, to advance. To make something. That's it. To be ... at least something. That's all we really want. Don't we all?

Skin: [CIA] Sofia Skin Natural - Red Lips (With Love Hunt)
Make-Up: [Misc. Inc.] I Love Line - Kindness 2
Hair: >TRUTH< BabyDoll 2 - Burgundy
Ears: :[P]: Lionheart Elven Ear - Myth

Sweater: [SAKIDE] Cashmere Pull White 1
Skirt: ::C'est la vie !:: retro print dress (League of Christmas Hunt)
Warmers: *BOOM* Arm Warmers - Christmas Edition *MESH* (League of Christmas Hunt)
Scarf: MALT - Green Scarf (KittyCat Advant 2011)
Socks: Modd.G = Trix Sheer Socks Green
Shoes: *G Field* Strap Shoes - Alex - Red
Mouth: :[P]: Omnom Holly-Double

Location: Three Moon Village
Listening: Michael Buble "Santa Baby"

Sunday, December 18, 2011

What I have become

We're a week from Christmas. It's the first time in four years for me. I'm home. Technically in the flesh with family - home. I guess it's a bit strange. I'm older, to say the least that being with family is a good thing for the holidays, but I find myself an introvert when it comes to these types of things. I am not the "blood is thicker than water" type of person. My family usually consists of those not of my blood, but of those I've gained along my journey of life.

Moving "home" has had it's ups and downs. I'm horribly missing the independence of my life, my existence of play in which I could do as I please. Seventy-five percent of my life tossed in ways that are gone, and the other twenty-five held down to continue on as I try to make sense of what the hell I'm going. At one time there was a method to the madness, now I'm not so sure. Maybe soon...

SL still holds a release during the madness though, with it's escape. I still cradle it in my arms and delve deep. Mesh finally reared it's head. It's all over the blog-sphere. I, for one, have jumped along...and yes..I too have taken that picture of the dress. How can I not?

Paradise opens in a couple of weeks. We are about ready. The story is set. Beauty is ready. I wonder if I will freeze upon the first week, if my writer's block will happen - that the story I want to tell will not come from my fingers. Will I hate that those that I want to tell will hate her story? I never know...It's always anxiety with me in these regards.

Skin: .::Mother Goose's::. HENA(2)B00
Make-Up: =[Pom.Pon]= Beauty-Spot-Lip
Make-Up: -Glam Affair- Tattoo Layer 01
Hair: [e] Comfort - Brown 11

Dress: Maitreya Nolia Indigo MESH *New*
Shoes: [e] Move Pumps - Antique
Bag: LaGyo - The Desperado Bag
Hair Piece: PIDIDDLE - Netted Flower
Necklace: *League* Vintage Double Stranded Soft Pearl Necklace
Earrings: *League* Vintage Heart Earrings

Pose: Olive Juice
Location: Cassava Island *Coming Soon!*

Monday, December 12, 2011


The last time I took a pen to paper was probably a couple years ago. Back then, it was easy to do. I would take an empty notebook, grab the first black pen I could find (I abhor blue) and write till I couldn't. Of course, during those times, I was going through troubles that most people tend to go through: messy relationships, the language of love, finding that love, trying to keep that love, and most often - just trying to live LIFE.

Writing though shouldn't be hard. It used to flow so easily. Like water, when I would turn a faucet on, and it would would gush out. So much that I couldn't keep up with it. Or maybe, during my blogging years on MySpace, I just liked the feeling of people reading. Maybe that's what I want again. Who's going to read this now? I'm not sure. For many - me, really...I just need an outlet. Outlet to get things out.

Nothing is really going to be spoken real. Nor is it going to be spoken false. Realism will be found in the posts I'm sure of it, and I'm sure that what I will write about - the people are real, and those people will have names, even if I change them to keep it safe and behind closed (or screened doors).

Random things will happen. Random links. Sites. Media. LIFE. What happens. Ramblings. Yes, I still ramble. I don't think I ever stopped.

Le final project is due tomorrow. Our RP sim opens in a couple weeks. I'm ready to get down, dirty, gritty and make the most of my character. I'm ready to create.

And I want snow.

Skin: Grixdale - Ren - Sugar - Clover *Retired*
Make-Up: PIDIDDLE - Chapped Lips & Cheeks / Full Face/ Teeth
Hair: >TRUTH< Snow Kitty - Carob

Dress: **[ Riddle ]** Winter Blues Dress - Grey
Tights: **[ Riddle ]** Cozy TIghts - Light Grey
Boots: magi take engineer boots [gray]

Pose: flowey