#38 ~ Butterlies and hurricanes...

The Fashion

Folly.

I luckily had this in my inventory from January. The Sea Hole's The Heron Skirt and Umbrella from Collabor88. 

Skin: al vulo - Corinna - Love Motion Porcelain *Group Gift*

Shape: My Own

Hair: >TRUTH< Monica - Silver

Eyes: .ID. December Gift / Blue

Eyelashes: .ploom. Lashes 6

Shirt: Nyte'N'Day - Crush Shirt - Tan (With Love Hunt)

Skirt: The Sea Hole - Heron Skirt - Clayberry (C88)

Boots: *G Field* [Mesh] Lace-Up Boots - Berry

Prop: The Sea Hole - Heron Parasol - Clayberry

Pose: Olive Juice (Closed) *sadface*

Location: Villefranche sur Mer

Listening: Muse "Butterflies and Hurricanes"

#33 ~ Tell me lies...

The Real
Got to break it down and get busy. Another application in and more studying to do. March 2nd here I come!

The Paradise
You truly find out who your friends are in this maddening world. No wonder my list is uber small.

The Fashion
Peek-a-boo!

Skin: [Atomic] Grace Skin (DB) Buff - Red Hot (TDR Exclusive)

Shape: My own

Hair: "LoQ Hair" Tiramisu - Black *Group Gift*

Make-Up: -Glam Affair- Make-Up Layer 01

Eyes: .ID. Thank You Gift

Eyelashes: .ploom. Lashes 6

Nails: * Rezlpsa Loc * ~ Honeysuckle Pink Nails

Shirt: MONS / February Bodysuit - red (TDR)

Panties: *Connors* H/W PANTALOON Black

Shoes: [celoe] zoe.pumps - Mahogany

Earrings: "LoQ" Be My Valentine <3

Purse: je suis...sauvage clutch zebra (gold) *MESH*

Pose: Olive Juice

Location: Cupcake Sim

Listening: Fleetwood Mac "Little Lies"

#25 ~ The Rebel's Woman...

The Paradise
Under the weighted boot of El Generale, those within Cassava need an ear and hope. They look to those who are young and strong. Ones that would stand up to the cruelty that the he has brought into the city and country, in hopes that they will have a chance to regain somewhat of their livelihood back.

They are The Uprising. A young group of individuals, locals of the isle striving for a purpose. Some are thieves, others hold respectable jobs, some are fathers, mothers - your sister...

The Fashion
Taken at the Rebel's base on Cassava Island, home of Paradise Lost Roleplay

Skin: - DAMNED - MHO1 Hunt Gift
Shape: My Own
Make-Up: [Misc. Inc.] I Love Liner - Diligence 1
Hair: "LoQ Hair" Cobbler - Hypnotic Red *Group Gift*
Eyes: :[Plastik]: - Aleria Collection/Seelie - Blu
Eyelashes: Mynerva
Tattoo: You + Me = Fuck

Top: [ SAKIDE ] Ribbed Tee-shirt Dress Wine
Tape: :[Plastik]: Bandaids <3 U-Darkest
Skirt: [ Cynful ] Poskskirt - 2012 Special Outfit
Stockings: *League* Side-Gartered Stockings - Bramble
Boots: drd lazyheel *Zombie Popcorn*
Bag: DECO - Slingback (Skulls) *MESH* (Group Gift)
Earrings: [Aura] Phosphorus - Club Hoops - Coral
Rings: PIDIDDLE - Gawdy Ring - Citrine (Season's Gatcha - Winter)

Pose: Olive Juice
Location: Cassava Island
Listening: Don Henley "Boys of Summer"

#24 ~ Opaque

The Real
Not transparent or translucent; impenetrable to light; not allowing light to pass through.
Not shining or bright; dark, dull.
Hard to understand.
Opaque.

I always thought opaque was a beautiful word. It's meaning though sounds rather depressing. This is what you get for really learning about a GRE word.

The Fashion

Skin: al vulo! - may ghost of the past porcelain *gift*

Shape: My own

Make-Up: Cheap Makeup - Babysitters Club Lashes

Hair: ::Exile:: Josie - Moonlight (TDR)

Eyes: .ID. December Gift / Green

Eyelashes: Mynerva

Jacket: R.icielli - DYLIA leather jacket / red

T-Shirt: -tres blah- C88 Graphic Tee - Love Potion No9 (C88)

Jeans: .:Acid&Mala:. I <3 my jeans - Low Rise - Ripped - Dark Blue

Boots: [Gos] Aviator Boot - Amelia in Worn

Hat: [NSD] Rufus Cap / Red (Season's Gatcha - Winter)

Purse: :pesca: chained bag gacha check and leather (Season's Gatcha - Winter)

Earrings: ::HH:: Hucci Tres Circle Earrings LRG (Group Gift)

Ring 1: PIDIDDLE - Gawdy Ring - Citrine (Season's Gatcha - Winter)

Ring 2: ~Pepper~ Pieces Ring 

Pose: Olive Juice

Location: Missing Mile

Listening: Dave Matthews Band "Cornbread"

#20 ~ Random incorporation...

The Real
So I'm a little behind in my writing.

When I first thought about coming over here, the idea was to do a 365 blog. It is to incorporate a mesh of my real life writings, ramblings and what-nots, along with the works of what I'm doing along with the sim that I currently run within Second Life with a few other friends, and the fashion that has grabbed me by the 'throat' - literally.

So, I still plan on doing that. 'Cept I need to get off my ass and catch up since this is blog #20 and it's January 22nd.... *sighs*

Well, Friday was my birthday - Happy Birthday to meeeeee...and I reached that pivotal age of mid-range that I wish I wasn't but I am, and the thoughts are in my head of where the fuck should I be. Do you ever ask yourself that? Are you where you're supposed to be? How does one get gumption to just get up and get what they want? Hmmm...if I knew, would things be just a tad bit easy to reach for? I question these little things because it's something that goes on in my head as I sit and study for the this exam I have to take in order to place into my Master's program. I think - I'm scared. I don't know why, but I am. I wish I knew...

The Paradise
We had a Town Hall Meeting today at the Penthouse of the Hotel Blanca on the sim. It was an OOC meeting to discuss what we're doing along the sim and what the players who are currently rping on the sim thought and had questions on. It went really well, things were brought up about sim wide rps, commodities, gun permits...sex. God, every sim I know needs sex. Yes - Sex Sells in RP.

The Fashion

Skin: -tb- Gatcha Skin: Mod (LS, light brows) (Season's Gatcha - Winter)
Shape: My own
Make-Up: ee. Midnight - Blue
Hair: Magika [Hair] Distracted - blonde
Eyes: ROZENA ~ Avian eye ~ Christmas red
Eyelashes: REDGRAVE - 19 DIVA

Top: MONS / Dress / Tekila - aqua
Pants: JANE - francie pants.raven
Belt: fri.day - Wide Waist Belt - Fruit Punch *FREE*
Boots: :)(: Ultimate Boots Black
Bag: Fleshtone :: The Huntingtone Bag [Glitter] *Group Gift*
Necklace: LaGyo - Adriel Necklace - Silver (C88)
Earrings: LaGyo - Adriel Earrings - Silver (C88)

Pose: Olive Juice
Location: Primitive City
Listening: Bjork "Venus As a Boy"

#5 ~ Bombs away...

The Real
Again I waited until the last moment to write. Not that I meant to, but it kind of just happened. Today was busy running around doing errands with my mom, getting ready for her and my dad's vacation, teaching my twenty year old brother to drive (yes...he's twenty..a late bloomer), and having to drive to campus to drop off things to the other brother, who doesn't have a car. I sometimes wonder if I'm just another "mom" in the making. Sister sure, but caregiver.

Tomorrow they leave for a week, which means that for a week, the youngest and I have the place to ourselves. Which means - no one to watch over my head. I kinda miss that. I miss living by myself. I've done it for so long, and finally when I moved back home, it felt so weird living with people again. Constantly having people walk in and out of my room at will. Looking over my shoulder. Questioning on what and why I do things. I had been so used to my own embodied closure that I am not used to the openness of having one snooping at my work. Especially on what I do at times. Even while I read.

It's annoying for sure.

I do wish they had a better craft beer selection down here. I'm craving.

The Paradise
Four more days.

Some things got set aside. Busy time on the forums, and we got some more applications. I had to laugh a little as I read some of them. Don't get me wrong - people are allowed their own devices and stories when roleplaying. This is THEIR fantasy. But it's a trip to read and see what some do think of. It makes you wonder why some get labeled as they do. It's all relative.

I still need to write up the Blue Lotus' background. Urgh.

The Fashion
SIMS!  Love finding a really nice sim and then...why do they always put a piece of silly prim in the middle of it to completely ruin the whole ambience?

Skin: *JeSyLiLO* ::XmasGift2011:: *PALE*BT
Shape: My own
Make-Up: None
Hair: [Shag] Voulez-Vous (Roots) - Butterscotch
Eyes: .ID. December Gift / Gray

Jacket: R.icielli - ALEXANDRA Leather Python Jacket - TDR
Tank-Top: *Fishy Strawberry* Lingerie - Incanto Red - Sheer - TDR
Pants: Maitreya - Leather Leggings - Oil (MESH)
Shoes: *G-Field* Flower Pumps "Eve" - Red

Gloves: Izzie's - Leather Gloves - Dark Grey
Ring: R.icielli - IRIS Skull Ring / Gold - TDR
Purse: ::Duh!:: Little Black Clutch (DIMH)

Pose: Olive Juice
Location: R.icielli Main Store
Listening: Imogen Heap "First Train Home"

#4 ~ Vacation can't last forever...

The Real
... The desire to write tonight is not there. Maybe I should try to write in the morning. Or afternoon. I think I'm just too frustrated.

The Paradise
Five more days. So much to do.

The Fashion
Christmas gift from Kris. About time I get to wear some swimwear...

Skin: -Glam Affair- Layla Light - tropicana BL *TDR*

Make-UP: =[Pom.Pon]= Beauty-Spot-Lip-Tattoo

Make-Up: cheLLe - (eyeliner) EyePop Tangerine

Make-Up: Grixdale - Body Shoppe - Powder - Blush (20%)

Make-Up: -Glam Affair- Tattoo Layer 01

Hair: >TRUTH< Kalia Streaked - Swedish

Bikini: LeeZu~ - Boho Bikini - Yellow

Shoes: [Gos] Espadrilles - In Bloom

Bag: Tres Blah Group Gift

Sunglasses: Apple May Designs - Big Shades (With Love Hunt)

Pose: Olive Juice & GLITTERATI

Location: Cassava Island

Listening: Pasty Cline "Crazy"

#3 ~ Heading...

The Real
Studied. One job post. Headache.
Had a doctors appointment to remove the skin blemish that has been dogging me for a few weeks now, so no more pain and bleeding. Just going to have a scar to deal with now. I just feel so tired.

The Paradise
Arguments.

The Fashion
Why can I never find good sims to take pictures in?

Skin: .ILLUSORY. Skin Paige Warmth Group Gift

Shap: My own

Make-Up: [Misc. Inc.] I Love Liner - Lust 1

Make-Up: Cheap Makeup - Miss Priss Lipgloss 1 (clear)

Eyes: Poetic Colors - Summer Wheat 

Hair: [Shag] Falling Slowly (bangs) - Autumn (Seasons Hunt)

Eyelashes: Mynerva

Jacket: {SMS} Fur Shrug

Shirt: -paper.doll- Sydney Black dress (With Love Hunt)

Pants: =Zenith= 3/4 Black Leggings

Boots: [GOS] Curvaceous Boots

Necklace: [ glow ] studio - Crosses Necklace - Gold

Earrings: Osakki // Flat Disks - Copper

Bracelets: Osakki // HAMUR. MetalCuff Copper

Bag: .:vive9:. Evonne Fringed Bag in Brunt Orange (With Love Hunt)

Pose: Olive Juice

Location: Missing Mile - Soap

Listening: Tori Amos "Girl"

What I have become

We're a week from Christmas. It's the first time in four years for me. I'm home. Technically in the flesh with family - home. I guess it's a bit strange. I'm older, to say the least that being with family is a good thing for the holidays, but I find myself an introvert when it comes to these types of things. I am not the "blood is thicker than water" type of person. My family usually consists of those not of my blood, but of those I've gained along my journey of life.

Moving "home" has had it's ups and downs. I'm horribly missing the independence of my life, my existence of play in which I could do as I please. Seventy-five percent of my life tossed in ways that are gone, and the other twenty-five held down to continue on as I try to make sense of what the hell I'm going. At one time there was a method to the madness, now I'm not so sure. Maybe soon...

SL still holds a release during the madness though, with it's escape. I still cradle it in my arms and delve deep. Mesh finally reared it's head. It's all over the blog-sphere. I, for one, have jumped along...and yes..I too have taken that picture of the dress. How can I not?

Paradise opens in a couple of weeks. We are about ready. The story is set. Beauty is ready. I wonder if I will freeze upon the first week, if my writer's block will happen - that the story I want to tell will not come from my fingers. Will I hate that those that I want to tell will hate her story? I never know...It's always anxiety with me in these regards.

Skin: .::Mother Goose's::. HENA(2)B00
Make-Up: =[Pom.Pon]= Beauty-Spot-Lip
Make-Up: -Glam Affair- Tattoo Layer 01
Hair: [e] Comfort - Brown 11

Dress: Maitreya Nolia Indigo MESH *New*
Shoes: [e] Move Pumps - Antique
Bag: LaGyo - The Desperado Bag
Hair Piece: PIDIDDLE - Netted Flower
Necklace: *League* Vintage Double Stranded Soft Pearl Necklace
Earrings: *League* Vintage Heart Earrings

Pose: Olive Juice
Location: Cassava Island *Coming Soon!*