#46 ~ Hollowness

The Fashion
A lot has been going on as The Festival of Sin has opened it's doors this past Saturday on the 18th. The sim has been packed non-stop and it's looking fine! So much exclusive things to get for all your sinfully needs. I hope everyone gets a chance to try a little bit of everything!

Taxi to the Festival of Sin

Skin: [Pink Fuel] Alyx <Honey> - Candy Hearts (auburn brow) (PROMO)

Shape: My own

Make-Up: Cheap Makeup - Tableau Lashes FREE

Make-Up: *elymode* makeup - Gluttony shadows - raspberry (full) (Festival of Sin)

Hair: MINA Hair - Moriko (Red) (Festival of Sin)

Eyes: :[Plastik]: Vae Collection - Starlight

Eyelashes: Mynerva

Eyelashes: .ploom. Lashes 6

Jacket: R.icielli - ALEXANDRA leather python jacket

Shirt: *elymode* Lussuria tank - red (Festival of Sin)

Skirt: *elymode* Lussuria skirt - black (Festival of Sin)

Tights: *elymode* Lussuria stockings - black (Festival of Sin)

Boots: _=FORSAKEN=_ Rawr! Shoes (Seraphim Gift)

Ring: R.icielli - IRIS Skull Ring / Gold

Poses: aDORKable (Festival of Sin)

Location: Sick

Listening: A Perfect Circle "The Hollow"

#24 ~ Opaque

The Real
Not transparent or translucent; impenetrable to light; not allowing light to pass through.
Not shining or bright; dark, dull.
Hard to understand.
Opaque.

I always thought opaque was a beautiful word. It's meaning though sounds rather depressing. This is what you get for really learning about a GRE word.

The Fashion

Skin: al vulo! - may ghost of the past porcelain *gift*

Shape: My own

Make-Up: Cheap Makeup - Babysitters Club Lashes

Hair: ::Exile:: Josie - Moonlight (TDR)

Eyes: .ID. December Gift / Green

Eyelashes: Mynerva

Jacket: R.icielli - DYLIA leather jacket / red

T-Shirt: -tres blah- C88 Graphic Tee - Love Potion No9 (C88)

Jeans: .:Acid&Mala:. I <3 my jeans - Low Rise - Ripped - Dark Blue

Boots: [Gos] Aviator Boot - Amelia in Worn

Hat: [NSD] Rufus Cap / Red (Season's Gatcha - Winter)

Purse: :pesca: chained bag gacha check and leather (Season's Gatcha - Winter)

Earrings: ::HH:: Hucci Tres Circle Earrings LRG (Group Gift)

Ring 1: PIDIDDLE - Gawdy Ring - Citrine (Season's Gatcha - Winter)

Ring 2: ~Pepper~ Pieces Ring 

Pose: Olive Juice

Location: Missing Mile

Listening: Dave Matthews Band "Cornbread"

#23 ~ He is the grand optimist..I am the world's poor pessimist

The Real
Everyday it's a new day. Each morning, I have to get up and start fresh. Although it seems dull and mediocre, it's something I have to do everyday in order to get through. I wake up. I read. I drink my coffee. I study. I job search. I play a little. Rinse and repeat until it's time to go to bed.

Words are little and barely said except for those in world or across the screen via a chat.

This is my world.

The Paradise
We are picking up! Two new PROs are started. An herb shop and jack of all trades place with it's own helicopter. Of course it's got a bit illegal going on, but it's bound to have some great stories coming out of it.

The Fashion
I do enjoy going to the Cupcake Sim where a lot of my favorite stores are, such as Milk Motion, The Secret Store, and Tee*fy. The cobblestones make for a great catwalk.

Skin: -tres blah- Gatcha Skin: Date Night (Season's Gatcha - Winter)

Shape: My Own

Make-Up: Grixdale - Body Shoppe - Seafoam

Make-Up: PIDIDDLE Cosmetics - Pearly Whites

Make-Up: Cheap Makeup - Miss Priss Lipgloss 1 (clear)

Hair: Analog Dog - Washu - Spice (Christmas Gift)

Eyes: REDGRAVE - Rihanna - Multicolor

Eyelashes: Mynerva

Jacket: Tee*fy Long Loose Belt Dust Pink (FLF)

Top: R.icielli - GEORGIA body/nude (part of)

Skirt: Chain and Vine - Suede Mini - Curvy - Blue *MESH* (Group Gift) 

Stockings: jOLIE! Edenish floral stockings

Boots: {mon tissu} Heathrow Boots *MESH*

Necklace: [ glow ] studio - Tripple Chain (silver chirstmass) (TDR)

Brooch: undefined lillies - tackered owl (silver/purple) (Group Gift)

Ring: PIDIDDLE - Gawdy RIng - Lost at Sea Sp. Edition (Group Gift)

Bag: Tee*fy Full Leather Holdall Bag Unisex (FLF)

Pose: Magnificant Poses

Location: Cupcake Sim

Listening: City and Colour "Grand Optimist"

#14 ~ She only comes out at night...

The Real
A while ago - that is, a few years back, I used to write a lot. When I would write, it would be mostly poetry. Maybe a few words of prose, a couple short stories, and now and then a keepsake of memories laid out on a notebook to which words would tumble out in such a way that they would sound like whimsical music to the ears.

Even now, those words tremble like tiny notes in the breeze.

Then I stopped writing.

I'm not sure why I did. But when I stopped, I had no outlet. For a while I couldn't decide what to do with myself. Then while I was thinking and doing my own thing I came upon role-playing in Second Life. Within role-playing I was able to story tell. I was able to capture a story and tell it through my eyes.

But it also went beyond. I could create a character.

Those characters...could be anyone...and because they could be anyone, it allowed me to be open with myself and do things that would be unspeakable. To get down and dirty: sex, drugs, and rock & roll. That's what role-play is about - story telling. Whether you are doing it within a post apoc sim, a gorean sim, a steampunk sim, or a dirty urban city sim - it's story telling.

It keeps my fingers nimble and my mind creative.

The Paradise
We are moving along. Slowly but surely, Paradise Lost is gradually getting people and stories. It's taking it's time but we're getting people.

The Fashion
The Season's Gatcha - Winter has opened up. I themed some of my things around an idea of what someone in my sim would wear...a girl caught on her way back to the flophouse in the early morning after a night of work...

Skin: al vulo - frida *passion tan *Group Gift*

Shape: My own

Make-Up: [mock] Darkened  Mood Garnets Makeover

Hair: Tiny Bird - Love You More - Deep Warm Black (FLF)

Eyes: .ID. December Group Gift / Brown

Eyelashes: Mynerva

Shirt: Lark - Enten Shirt - Pirouzeh (Seasons Gatcha Winter)

Skirt: R.icielli - ANTO II highwaisted skirt / cherry *Winter Hunt*

Shoes: Ingenue ::Abrial Boot:: French Vanilla (Seasons Gatcha Winter)

Earrings: [ glow ] studio - Huge pearl Drop earrings (russet silver) (Seasons Gatcha Winter)

Ring: PIDIDDLE - Gawdy Ring - Citrine (Seasons Gatcha Winter)

Bag: Tee*fy Mini Crossbody Bag (Used Leather Red) (Seasons Gatcha Winter)

Pose: GLITERRATI

Location: Cassava Island

Listening: Hall and Oates "Maneater"

#13 The Learning Garden

The Real (circa 2007)

I've forever been a person, lost in the wonderment of my own childish ways. Gathered by the ever growing number of people that come into my life, I can only grasp so much from them the knowledge that they bestow.

With each bit, I cradle in my hands, like buds of spring flowers, ready to bloom for all to see. But mine seem to lay bare, naked without sun. They thirst for water, begging for a fulfillment that I may not reach.

I would be so careless to drop them, search out more that would bloom, or stuff them in my pockets for later use. I would love to scatter them and watch them flower, but for what? Knowledge that I may not use, or could not? I may not understand. I am a bit slow in a lot of things, my grasp of detail not precise and I cannot debate to save my life.

But then again, useless knowledge could come in handy. The ideas thrown around in my mind, bounce like rubber balls that we played with as children. Ideas that only I could probably understand, and would in turn try to make you understand. It would sound like garbled mess, but after my understanding, you would probably see a different me.

Every word that I listen to I take in. My mind can only take so much before it's been overloaded and processed. I would so merrily hop away, playing the lost girl forever in her garden, but to tend the garden, one needs to know how to keep it from growing wild. So with each brand new idea, I tend to the blooms, seeding the ground with the buds that I've been giving.

I have no green thumb.

Lost words tend to spring up and jumbled weeds take over most times. I work, pulling the uselessness from the ground, allowing the buds that have bloomed to breathe in. These I want to understand. These I want to learn from, the ones that blossom so fully for me. Take me for granted, this is how I try. This is not me playing the imbecile it's only me realizing that I cannot understand all. In actuality, are we suppose to know all?

Skin: MOJO - MARAIA - Group Gift *Christmas*

Shape: My Own

Make-Up: R.icielli - Freckles 1

Eyes: :[Plastik]:-Haunt Collection-Hera's Gold (FLF)
Hair: LekLuka - AWE hair "Marilyn" *Group Gift*

Shirt: The Sea Hole - Minna Blouse - Sunbeam (C88)

Skirt: The Sea Hole - Heron Skirt - Sunbeam (C88)

Boots: ~gateau~ drover boot - sandstone

Necklace: (Caroline's Jewelry) Owl Necklace

Pose: GLITTERATI

Location: Lula

Listening: Stevie Nicks "Witchy Woman"

#11 ~ Train of thought...

The Real
Another day. Another application. I didn't study. Urgh.

The Paradise
Slowly but surely. The market is saturated. We'll find our footing. I hope we do. We have a good sim. A good storyline. I want this to work. I want to write...

The Fashion
I'm frustrated on how to actually have my pictures turn out like most. I look at others on Flickr and those on blogs and I know that there is a lot of photoshopping going on, and I really don't want to have to go and spend the time editing my pictures, but I feel that I have to in order to 'impress'. Is this really the way?

Skin: [Atomic] Grace Skin (DB) Buff - Winter Kiss (TDR)
Shape: My own
Make-Up: R.icielli - Freckles 3
Make-Up: Grixdale - Body Shoppe - Emerald
Make-Up: =[Pom.Pon]= Beauty.-Spot-Lip-Tattoo
Make-Up: :GP: Pout-Lips 3
Hair: Analog Dog - Madison2 - House Wine - Christmas Gift
Eyes: .ID. December Gift / Brown
Eyelashes: Mynerva

Jacket: AOHARU [TFG] Jacket - Red
Tank: R.icielli - MSMONROE Longshirt / nude (TDR)
Pants: JANE - wide leg pant.zooey.truffle (fair) *MESH*
Shoes: fri.day - Dream.Booties (Cream)
Necklace: [ glow ] studio - Kitten
Purse: The Secret Store - Girly Briefcase - Cherry

Poses: [.doll]
Location: Great Eagle
Listening: A-Ha "Train of Thought"

#9 ~ My world for a song...

The Real

I want to believe in fairy tales. I want to believe that there is something out there to make this world…a little bit better.

So where do we find it?

Do we latch on to delusions of things? Conjure up mysteries and mayhem to excite us? Fabricate a person to worship and rejoice in, and make others believe?

Tell me why you follow down the path you’ve chosen. Was it instilled in you when growing up? Did you find your belief, your faith, or your non-existent feelings on your own?

How do you decide if you’re going to be a good person, or a person who cares only for themselves?

I want to believe in fairy tales. To blind my eyes with dreams of niceties, and fellow man. To drink heartily from the cup of life and not let those that spout hatred and perform atrocities bother my soul.

But as an adult, I’m no longer allowed to believe in fairy tales. I’m no longer allowed to believe that peace will reign one day. That our Earth will stop weeping. That our children, and our future generations will see the good that we have sowed, instead of the bad.

If I am allowed to believe, and within, belief in myself, then I won’t worry about the persecution that may come from what I chose to follow.

I’m following a fairy tale.

The Paradise

We opened today. Good turn out. A little drama. "Oh I can't play here because so and so plays here and she's a whore." Uh...what? Hello? Kettle calling one black? We're all whores. Welcome to Second Life. Whore is an everyday word. Get used to it.

The Fashion

I've been reading a lot of J.D. Robb. Eve. Inspired.

Skin: :[Plastik]:-Aleria - Sandcastle-Flush (FLF)

Shape: My Own

Make-Up: R.icielli - Freckles 1

Hair: ::Exile:: Betty Lou - Midnight (Purple bow) (TDR)

Eyes: :[Plastik]:-Haunt Collection - Hera's Gold (FLF)

Jacket: .:A&M:. Punk Baby Outfit Leather Jacket

Shirt: -Tres Blah- C88 Graphic Tee - Leopard Cross (C88)

Pants: *Fishy Strawberry* Moto Pants Beige (Fashionably Late)

Shoes: [PM] Luna Leopard *MESH* (Group Gift)

Glasses: Alphavillain - Mathletics Sunglasses (large)

Earrings: [Aura] - Phosphorus - Club Hoops - Violet (Four Corners Event)

Parasol: The Sea Hole - Heron Parasol - Sunbeam

Gun: Titan Industries 92FS Beretta

Pose: GLITTERATI & Long Awkward Pose

Location: Sick

Listening: The Police "Murder By Numbers"

#5 ~ Bombs away...

The Real
Again I waited until the last moment to write. Not that I meant to, but it kind of just happened. Today was busy running around doing errands with my mom, getting ready for her and my dad's vacation, teaching my twenty year old brother to drive (yes...he's twenty..a late bloomer), and having to drive to campus to drop off things to the other brother, who doesn't have a car. I sometimes wonder if I'm just another "mom" in the making. Sister sure, but caregiver.

Tomorrow they leave for a week, which means that for a week, the youngest and I have the place to ourselves. Which means - no one to watch over my head. I kinda miss that. I miss living by myself. I've done it for so long, and finally when I moved back home, it felt so weird living with people again. Constantly having people walk in and out of my room at will. Looking over my shoulder. Questioning on what and why I do things. I had been so used to my own embodied closure that I am not used to the openness of having one snooping at my work. Especially on what I do at times. Even while I read.

It's annoying for sure.

I do wish they had a better craft beer selection down here. I'm craving.

The Paradise
Four more days.

Some things got set aside. Busy time on the forums, and we got some more applications. I had to laugh a little as I read some of them. Don't get me wrong - people are allowed their own devices and stories when roleplaying. This is THEIR fantasy. But it's a trip to read and see what some do think of. It makes you wonder why some get labeled as they do. It's all relative.

I still need to write up the Blue Lotus' background. Urgh.

The Fashion
SIMS!  Love finding a really nice sim and then...why do they always put a piece of silly prim in the middle of it to completely ruin the whole ambience?

Skin: *JeSyLiLO* ::XmasGift2011:: *PALE*BT
Shape: My own
Make-Up: None
Hair: [Shag] Voulez-Vous (Roots) - Butterscotch
Eyes: .ID. December Gift / Gray

Jacket: R.icielli - ALEXANDRA Leather Python Jacket - TDR
Tank-Top: *Fishy Strawberry* Lingerie - Incanto Red - Sheer - TDR
Pants: Maitreya - Leather Leggings - Oil (MESH)
Shoes: *G-Field* Flower Pumps "Eve" - Red

Gloves: Izzie's - Leather Gloves - Dark Grey
Ring: R.icielli - IRIS Skull Ring / Gold - TDR
Purse: ::Duh!:: Little Black Clutch (DIMH)

Pose: Olive Juice
Location: R.icielli Main Store
Listening: Imogen Heap "First Train Home"

#1 ~ The next morning...

...after all the champagne has been consumed, we begin our new year. It's time for a new beginning, a new chance, a time to shake the old and grab a new glass. Within this moment we all take a mental break and think what would make us better:

- lose weight
- don't drink too much
- stop smoking
- be better people
- get that job!
- fall in love

... and so much more.

I think after many failures of past resolutions that for once, I need the smaller day to day ones. For this - this will be a 365.

Real life. Second Life. Media. Social. All the in between.

Luna Jubilee's 52 Weeks of Color Challenge: Champagne

Skin: -Glam Affair- Jadis - Natural B - TDR # 24
Shape: My own
Make-Up: [mock] Darkened Mood Garnets
Hair: [Shag] Pretty Please - Scarlet *Group Gift 2011*
Eyes: .ID. December Gift / BlueGreen
Eyelashes: Mynerva

Top: Tee*fy Cutout Dress Nude 5 *Last FLF*
Skirt: R.icielli - BEATRIZ Sequined miniskirt / gold - TDR
Heels: R.icielli - CARMELIA Pumps / Crema - TDR
Jewelry: [ glow ] studio - Glossy Heart Set *With Love Hunt*

Pose: GLITTERATI & K** Stand Poses
Location: Cassava Island
Listening: Imogen Heap "Goodnight and Go"