#54 ~ Mucho...

The Real
I'm moving my blog. I am finding Blogspot not really to my liking, which means I'll be going back to Wordpress here in the next week. Even buying my own name! Exciting really. Fingers crossed, k?

The Fashion
Week 10 - Avocado for Luna's 52 Week's of Color Challenge. I do like when I already have things in my inventory. Also been messing with the fact that I finally got it right about shadows. The only thing is now the touch-ups. See how they get a little raggedy? I know it's due to pixelation, but we tend to like perfection eh?

Skin: -tb- Gatcha Skin: Date Night (LS) 

Shape: My own

Make-Up: [mock] Shadow Purple Winterberry 1 (Seraphim)

Make-Up: PIDIDDLE Cosmetics - LipStain - Bitten (Group Gift)

Hair: (Milana) Olive (Group Gift)

Eyes: .ID. December Gift / Green

Eyelashes: Mynerva

Eyelashes: .ploom. Lashes 6

Dress: -[AddiCt]- LUCILLE Sweater Dress / Moss

Tights: *League* Side-Gartered Stockings - Bramble - Black Garter

Boots: *G Field* Lace-Up Boots - Black (S)

Necklace: CONCRETE FLOWERS - Emily Necklance

Pose: R.icielli

Listening: Asian Zen Spa Music *I kid you not*

#49 ~ Blinding

The Fashion

Taxi to: Festival of Sin

Skin: -Glam Affair- Amelie Skin - Silent Doll

Shape: My own

Make-Up: Cheap Makeup - Tableau Lashes FREE

Hair: ! Sugarsmack ! - Adora/Licorice Whip (Festival of Sin)

Dress: [ SAKIDE ] Bloody Heart Keeper Dress (Zombie Popcorn Hunt 6)

Socks: [ SAKIDE ] Bloody Heart Keeper Socks (Zombie Popcorn Hunt 6)

Shoes: [Gos] Triumph Boots - Red (Festival of Sin)

Collar: .la petite morte. my own master (Festival of Sin)

Blindfold: .la petite morte. blindfold / black (Festival of Sin)

Chain: Captivity Poses - Key Necklace

Cuff: -[AddiCt]- Wrath Spike Cuff - Red (Festival of Sin)

Ring: PIDIDDLE - Gawdy Ring Set (Zombie Popcorn Hunt 6)

Pose: Captivity Poses - Prisoner of Love (Festival of Sin)

Location: Mysterious Wave

Listening: Florence & The Machine "Blinding"

#25 ~ The Rebel's Woman...

The Paradise
Under the weighted boot of El Generale, those within Cassava need an ear and hope. They look to those who are young and strong. Ones that would stand up to the cruelty that the he has brought into the city and country, in hopes that they will have a chance to regain somewhat of their livelihood back.

They are The Uprising. A young group of individuals, locals of the isle striving for a purpose. Some are thieves, others hold respectable jobs, some are fathers, mothers - your sister...

The Fashion
Taken at the Rebel's base on Cassava Island, home of Paradise Lost Roleplay

Skin: - DAMNED - MHO1 Hunt Gift
Shape: My Own
Make-Up: [Misc. Inc.] I Love Liner - Diligence 1
Hair: "LoQ Hair" Cobbler - Hypnotic Red *Group Gift*
Eyes: :[Plastik]: - Aleria Collection/Seelie - Blu
Eyelashes: Mynerva
Tattoo: You + Me = Fuck

Top: [ SAKIDE ] Ribbed Tee-shirt Dress Wine
Tape: :[Plastik]: Bandaids <3 U-Darkest
Skirt: [ Cynful ] Poskskirt - 2012 Special Outfit
Stockings: *League* Side-Gartered Stockings - Bramble
Boots: drd lazyheel *Zombie Popcorn*
Bag: DECO - Slingback (Skulls) *MESH* (Group Gift)
Earrings: [Aura] Phosphorus - Club Hoops - Coral
Rings: PIDIDDLE - Gawdy Ring - Citrine (Season's Gatcha - Winter)

Pose: Olive Juice
Location: Cassava Island
Listening: Don Henley "Boys of Summer"

#24 ~ Opaque

The Real
Not transparent or translucent; impenetrable to light; not allowing light to pass through.
Not shining or bright; dark, dull.
Hard to understand.
Opaque.

I always thought opaque was a beautiful word. It's meaning though sounds rather depressing. This is what you get for really learning about a GRE word.

The Fashion

Skin: al vulo! - may ghost of the past porcelain *gift*

Shape: My own

Make-Up: Cheap Makeup - Babysitters Club Lashes

Hair: ::Exile:: Josie - Moonlight (TDR)

Eyes: .ID. December Gift / Green

Eyelashes: Mynerva

Jacket: R.icielli - DYLIA leather jacket / red

T-Shirt: -tres blah- C88 Graphic Tee - Love Potion No9 (C88)

Jeans: .:Acid&Mala:. I <3 my jeans - Low Rise - Ripped - Dark Blue

Boots: [Gos] Aviator Boot - Amelia in Worn

Hat: [NSD] Rufus Cap / Red (Season's Gatcha - Winter)

Purse: :pesca: chained bag gacha check and leather (Season's Gatcha - Winter)

Earrings: ::HH:: Hucci Tres Circle Earrings LRG (Group Gift)

Ring 1: PIDIDDLE - Gawdy Ring - Citrine (Season's Gatcha - Winter)

Ring 2: ~Pepper~ Pieces Ring 

Pose: Olive Juice

Location: Missing Mile

Listening: Dave Matthews Band "Cornbread"

#23 ~ He is the grand optimist..I am the world's poor pessimist

The Real
Everyday it's a new day. Each morning, I have to get up and start fresh. Although it seems dull and mediocre, it's something I have to do everyday in order to get through. I wake up. I read. I drink my coffee. I study. I job search. I play a little. Rinse and repeat until it's time to go to bed.

Words are little and barely said except for those in world or across the screen via a chat.

This is my world.

The Paradise
We are picking up! Two new PROs are started. An herb shop and jack of all trades place with it's own helicopter. Of course it's got a bit illegal going on, but it's bound to have some great stories coming out of it.

The Fashion
I do enjoy going to the Cupcake Sim where a lot of my favorite stores are, such as Milk Motion, The Secret Store, and Tee*fy. The cobblestones make for a great catwalk.

Skin: -tres blah- Gatcha Skin: Date Night (Season's Gatcha - Winter)

Shape: My Own

Make-Up: Grixdale - Body Shoppe - Seafoam

Make-Up: PIDIDDLE Cosmetics - Pearly Whites

Make-Up: Cheap Makeup - Miss Priss Lipgloss 1 (clear)

Hair: Analog Dog - Washu - Spice (Christmas Gift)

Eyes: REDGRAVE - Rihanna - Multicolor

Eyelashes: Mynerva

Jacket: Tee*fy Long Loose Belt Dust Pink (FLF)

Top: R.icielli - GEORGIA body/nude (part of)

Skirt: Chain and Vine - Suede Mini - Curvy - Blue *MESH* (Group Gift) 

Stockings: jOLIE! Edenish floral stockings

Boots: {mon tissu} Heathrow Boots *MESH*

Necklace: [ glow ] studio - Tripple Chain (silver chirstmass) (TDR)

Brooch: undefined lillies - tackered owl (silver/purple) (Group Gift)

Ring: PIDIDDLE - Gawdy RIng - Lost at Sea Sp. Edition (Group Gift)

Bag: Tee*fy Full Leather Holdall Bag Unisex (FLF)

Pose: Magnificant Poses

Location: Cupcake Sim

Listening: City and Colour "Grand Optimist"

#14 ~ She only comes out at night...

The Real
A while ago - that is, a few years back, I used to write a lot. When I would write, it would be mostly poetry. Maybe a few words of prose, a couple short stories, and now and then a keepsake of memories laid out on a notebook to which words would tumble out in such a way that they would sound like whimsical music to the ears.

Even now, those words tremble like tiny notes in the breeze.

Then I stopped writing.

I'm not sure why I did. But when I stopped, I had no outlet. For a while I couldn't decide what to do with myself. Then while I was thinking and doing my own thing I came upon role-playing in Second Life. Within role-playing I was able to story tell. I was able to capture a story and tell it through my eyes.

But it also went beyond. I could create a character.

Those characters...could be anyone...and because they could be anyone, it allowed me to be open with myself and do things that would be unspeakable. To get down and dirty: sex, drugs, and rock & roll. That's what role-play is about - story telling. Whether you are doing it within a post apoc sim, a gorean sim, a steampunk sim, or a dirty urban city sim - it's story telling.

It keeps my fingers nimble and my mind creative.

The Paradise
We are moving along. Slowly but surely, Paradise Lost is gradually getting people and stories. It's taking it's time but we're getting people.

The Fashion
The Season's Gatcha - Winter has opened up. I themed some of my things around an idea of what someone in my sim would wear...a girl caught on her way back to the flophouse in the early morning after a night of work...

Skin: al vulo - frida *passion tan *Group Gift*

Shape: My own

Make-Up: [mock] Darkened  Mood Garnets Makeover

Hair: Tiny Bird - Love You More - Deep Warm Black (FLF)

Eyes: .ID. December Group Gift / Brown

Eyelashes: Mynerva

Shirt: Lark - Enten Shirt - Pirouzeh (Seasons Gatcha Winter)

Skirt: R.icielli - ANTO II highwaisted skirt / cherry *Winter Hunt*

Shoes: Ingenue ::Abrial Boot:: French Vanilla (Seasons Gatcha Winter)

Earrings: [ glow ] studio - Huge pearl Drop earrings (russet silver) (Seasons Gatcha Winter)

Ring: PIDIDDLE - Gawdy Ring - Citrine (Seasons Gatcha Winter)

Bag: Tee*fy Mini Crossbody Bag (Used Leather Red) (Seasons Gatcha Winter)

Pose: GLITERRATI

Location: Cassava Island

Listening: Hall and Oates "Maneater"

What I have become

We're a week from Christmas. It's the first time in four years for me. I'm home. Technically in the flesh with family - home. I guess it's a bit strange. I'm older, to say the least that being with family is a good thing for the holidays, but I find myself an introvert when it comes to these types of things. I am not the "blood is thicker than water" type of person. My family usually consists of those not of my blood, but of those I've gained along my journey of life.

Moving "home" has had it's ups and downs. I'm horribly missing the independence of my life, my existence of play in which I could do as I please. Seventy-five percent of my life tossed in ways that are gone, and the other twenty-five held down to continue on as I try to make sense of what the hell I'm going. At one time there was a method to the madness, now I'm not so sure. Maybe soon...

SL still holds a release during the madness though, with it's escape. I still cradle it in my arms and delve deep. Mesh finally reared it's head. It's all over the blog-sphere. I, for one, have jumped along...and yes..I too have taken that picture of the dress. How can I not?

Paradise opens in a couple of weeks. We are about ready. The story is set. Beauty is ready. I wonder if I will freeze upon the first week, if my writer's block will happen - that the story I want to tell will not come from my fingers. Will I hate that those that I want to tell will hate her story? I never know...It's always anxiety with me in these regards.

Skin: .::Mother Goose's::. HENA(2)B00
Make-Up: =[Pom.Pon]= Beauty-Spot-Lip
Make-Up: -Glam Affair- Tattoo Layer 01
Hair: [e] Comfort - Brown 11

Dress: Maitreya Nolia Indigo MESH *New*
Shoes: [e] Move Pumps - Antique
Bag: LaGyo - The Desperado Bag
Hair Piece: PIDIDDLE - Netted Flower
Necklace: *League* Vintage Double Stranded Soft Pearl Necklace
Earrings: *League* Vintage Heart Earrings

Pose: Olive Juice
Location: Cassava Island *Coming Soon!*

Intro...

The last time I took a pen to paper was probably a couple years ago. Back then, it was easy to do. I would take an empty notebook, grab the first black pen I could find (I abhor blue) and write till I couldn't. Of course, during those times, I was going through troubles that most people tend to go through: messy relationships, the language of love, finding that love, trying to keep that love, and most often - just trying to live LIFE.

Writing though shouldn't be hard. It used to flow so easily. Like water, when I would turn a faucet on, and it would would gush out. So much that I couldn't keep up with it. Or maybe, during my blogging years on MySpace, I just liked the feeling of people reading. Maybe that's what I want again. Who's going to read this now? I'm not sure. For many - me, really...I just need an outlet. Outlet to get things out.

Nothing is really going to be spoken real. Nor is it going to be spoken false. Realism will be found in the posts I'm sure of it, and I'm sure that what I will write about - the people are real, and those people will have names, even if I change them to keep it safe and behind closed (or screened doors).

Random things will happen. Random links. Sites. Media. LIFE. What happens. Ramblings. Yes, I still ramble. I don't think I ever stopped.

Le final project is due tomorrow. Our RP sim opens in a couple weeks. I'm ready to get down, dirty, gritty and make the most of my character. I'm ready to create.

And I want snow.

Skin: Grixdale - Ren - Sugar - Clover *Retired*
Make-Up: PIDIDDLE - Chapped Lips & Cheeks / Full Face/ Teeth
Hair: >TRUTH< Snow Kitty - Carob

Dress: **[ Riddle ]** Winter Blues Dress - Grey
Tights: **[ Riddle ]** Cozy TIghts - Light Grey
Boots: magi take engineer boots [gray]

Pose: flowey